2/1/09

beside this empty bed God never leaves her side why was it within herself she always had to hide i hope there's no pharmacy in heaven she'll find it if it's there no pills in heaven will she want will always be my prayer the next time i see her she will be free free from the drugs free from the need they're a powerful thing these drugs that we sell they can strengthen your body or put you through HELL my prayer is that no one else will go through this pain so mother's death will not be in vain no one could put a number on the years that she just slept not knowing we were there not knowing we wept change for us... for our children... for yourself... we pled she never listened and now she is DEAD WAIT... God chose not to take her with us she would stay leaving us all in total dismay would she pay for her choices was suffering in store will she feel the agony she caused us and more there are so many things i'll never understand but one things for sure God sticks to His plan question Him not He'll show us in time have faith in Him and He'll calm our minds